Huhu.. 3 Days left for Major exam..

Haih..
Why..
Why every time my major exam coming sure got family problem?
How should i Study under a situation like this?
Phew..
Every day forced to wake up in midnight for me to revision..
That the only time that my house is..
Peace..
Quiet..
Easy for me to concentrate..

3 More days..!!
3 Days made me not enough sleep..
Not feeling well..
Let me feel stress..
Let me feel tention..
Let me feel frus..
DAM IT..!!!

Finally.. What i wan i got it..

Hmm..
16 days?
What i wan is come across that 16 days..
Without Argue..
Without Angry..
Without Pain..
left 12 days..
So far..
Just argue once..
And it is cause by a mistake..
But we did apologize to each other..
So the thing just over like this..

I am so sorry to you..
I've been controlled you for so long..
I don let you talk to someone that i don like..
I don let you do something that i don like..
I don give you any freedom..
I doesn't think about your feeling..
I don know how to control my temper..
I simply scold you..
I simply Bit you in front of your friend..
I make you no faces in front of your friend..
I will easy get jealous..
I am really sorry..
Making you in difficult situation for so long..

I still remember the first thing u demand from me is..
You want me to leave you..
Because you cant stand my un-mature attitude..
But I am to selfish..
I don want to leave you..
But know..
I think true it..
Everything you don demand i give you..
But how bout what you demand..
Did i give you..?
And yet..
I made you very angry..
I made you very hate me..
I made you very unhappy..
I made you get sick..

On the end..
When i need your help..
You don wan to help me anymore..
because of i made u angry, unhappy, hate me and get sick..
On the other hand,
I said..
" If you help me.. I will leave you.."
"After you help me i will leave you.."
Finally you help me..

After you help me..
I am ready to leave you although i love you very very very much..
But the attitude you treat me changed..
You said don leave you until PMR end..
Why?
Why you do this?
Even i leave you now or after PMR..
At the end..
I still need to leave you..
It is okay..
After PMR..
16th of October..
Everything between Us just end up like this..
Even how good we are..
Even how much i love you..
We should be seperated..

After all this i will went back to KL for one month..
For me to cold-down..
For me to forget bout you..
Hope i can do it..

Hope same to you too..
Take care My friend..

What a Bad Day..

Today..
Every thing that we say "BAD" all happen on me..
morning went to school..
Very happy..
Waiting for her..
Finally she came..
First thing she did is touch my nose..
Asked why were my panda eye came out..
i told her it was a last rush..
she keep silent and sad..

After recess..
We Having our science lesson..
Teacher giving us out trial two marks..
I was very nervous..
Finally..
I got my score improve for 40 marks..
From 30% ~ 70%..
That moment the hold class was clapping the hand..
And my teacher was very proud of me..
I am the highest mark in the class..

After Science class..
Our class having a big joke about one of my friend..
and the boy i hated so much and my girl promised me not to care about him is included in the Joke..
He call my girl..
My girl answered her with a happy face..
At the moment..
My heart feel very angry..
"Arghhh..!!! She promised me not to talk to her"
I feel like scolding her..
But i pray every nite every morning..
I pray to control my weird temper..
I keep it in my heart..
I Pain myself..
I cry myself..

After school..
I was very happy because i dint see my mom for 10days..
She finally came back From KL..
After school i bringing my happy mode to see her in the office..
But the moment i reach..
The first thing she do is Scold me..
"Why You dint look after your cousin?!"
"Why you let him go out at the late nite?!"
"You see! Now he accident. The car inside the workshop"
"Need to spend RM 600 to repair it."
I think..
"Hey.. What the hell.."
"Not i Driving that car.."
"Even you all also cant control him.."
"Apa lagi me?"
Everything goes weird and weird and weird..
My mom Straight went out from the office to go home..

After my mom reach Home..
All the house key was with my cousin brother..
And he was in the house sleeping..
My mom and me Step Dad call him to open the door but he din heard that..
And my mom call me..
"OI! WHY MY HOUSE KEY ON THER CAR KEY LOST?!?!"
"WHO TAKE OFF?!?!"
I said..
" All the house key was with my cousin Brother.."
"He was sleeping now.."
"You try to call him.."
"That day he don have key i borrow him mine.."
"He haven give me back my key.."
"He put his key in the car and now is at the workshop"
"So he took off your house key one your car key for a borrow."
"but maybe he din put back to you"
And they cant get him..
My Step father was very angry and broke the door and go in to the house..
When to moment they go in the house..
My mom Call again..
"WHY I AM NOT HERE FOR TEN DAYS.."
"THE HOUSE STILL THIS DIRTY?!?!"
"WHY YOU ALL DIN CLEAN IT UP?!?"
"THE HOUSE IS NOTHING DIFFERENT EVEN YOU GOT CLEAN.."
"BEFORE I WENT OFF AND AFTER I CAME BACK IS STILL THIS DIRTY.."
(She hang off the phone hardly)
I get scold for two time unexpectedly..

After i reach home..
The door was Opened..
My Cousin brother was sleeping..
My mom was cleaning her room..
My aunt was cleaning the Kitchen..
And No one is cleaning the house..
I took off my shirt and i clean the house..
When my mom came down..
i get scold again..
"Within that ten days u dunno how to clean the house?!"
"Must wait until i came back only can clean?!?"
I think..
'Hey.. this house except me no other people will clean the floor..'
'you all know how to dirty it but dunno how to clean it..'
Then i said..
'I need to study..'
'my major exam was on next week..'
'i having my last rush..'
'i wake up every midnight for study..'
"until morning i straight away to school and study again.."
"Dont You all consider about my situation?"
I get scold AGAIN!!
"Why must study midnight?"
"after school cannot study huh?"
"Bother other people sleeping.."

WHAT THE FUCK!!
I Dint clean the house also wrong..
I did Clean the house also wrong..
I Dint Study also wrong..
I did Study also wrong..

Every wrong did by other people i am the one who get scold..
Did i wrong?
I Know what am i doing..
I know when is my exam..
Can you all (my family) just help me to do the house work for a period?
Please i Beg you all..
I need to study..
I need my rest..

Why Do you do?

WHY?!?!
Is it when u need help i din help you?
When u need money do i borrow you?
Although i said i had not enough money use..
Is it at the end i still borrow you?
Why Did you say something like this to hurt me?
Why did you say something like this to hurt your family?
Everytime you take the money not to do something that good..
But you borrow the money from me to DRINK!
You borrow my money to SPEND ON THAT GIRL THAT CANNOT BE TRUSTED?
Pls la..
I also got a girl..
i also need to save money..
I also need to buy her stuff..
NOT ONLY YOU FUC*ER ! !
i need to save money to make my dream come true la..
You dun have money can u earn yourself?
can you dont be like a beggar begging people moneys?
Did you feel yourself is useless?
Yea, You did..
But if u feel that not every time you shouting..
"Never mind i go committed suicide.."
"Never mind you now go take a knife and slash me"

NOT EVERYTHING CAN USING "MAD" TO SOLVE IT ! !

Your mom is care for you concern for you..
And not wanted to mumbling at you..
WTH you did to her?
After you drinking you come back and shout?
After you drinking you come back to be a Crazy Dog?

Aren't you said that you cannot stand all of the ppl here so u can shout out you wanna leave this place?

Dont forget what you did last time..
Dont forget who is the one who support you when u face you failure..
Dont forget who help you when u facing your failure..

Now people let you work..
Giving you a salary that higher than the post you having..
Now you say u wan go away then go away?
For You..
You being people's Kuli for your hold life you also not enough to pay back to the people who helping you...

Every one is doing for your own good..
Not to control you..
Not to dont want let you go out..
Yeah, you can go out but not to came back home with drunk situation..
You are staying people's house..
Not your own house..

Everything got it own rule & regulation..
Please Follow it..
that house you staying having a people who going to take a major exam..
people need to study..
People need a silent, quiet, peacefull situation to Study..
How you expect a People can concentrate their study under a noisy situation..

MR M!
I HOPE YOU CAN THINK WITH YOUR BRAIN..
SOLVE IT BY A CORRECT WAY..
NOT DRINKING UNTIL YOU ARE DRUNK AND SLEPT.
THAT NOT THE WAY.
I NEED A PEACEFUL SITUATION TO STUDY.
DONT ARGUE WITH YOUR MOM.
YOUR MOM CAME FROM SO FAR TO WORK TO AVOID YOUR NONSENSE..
NOW YOU ARE HERE..
YOU STILL WANNA MADE TROUBLE FOR YOUR MOM..
PLEASE LA..
PITY HER..
ALTHOUGH SHE LOVE MUMBLING..
SHE LOVE ASKING QUESTION..
YOU KNOW HOW TO TELL ME KEEP SILENT..
BUT YOURSELF YOU CANT DO IT..


STRESS!!
TENTION!!

Exam Coming Soon..

Exam Coming Soon..
Few days not to sleep but sleep in school..
Everynites study, study, study..
Very tention..

I really happy that..
The one who Refuse to talk to me for one month..
The one who i use to study with..
The one who use to accompany all the time..

She offer me for helping me in library on my study..
Although just one hour there..
But she made me feel like studying..
Hu.. That why.. Everynight i am not sleeping and i am studying..

Reach School..
Any free period then i will sleep maybe for 15 minute..
While i sleep she will sit beside me..
After this 15 minute..
She will wake me up..
Time to study again..

Recess time..
I was studying in the class..
And not really feel like walk to canteen and buy some food to eat..
But suddenly someone bring me a sandwich..
I ask.. Who get you give it to me?

He said..
"She" call me to give it at you and she said you must finish it..
Of course i will finish it..
( Because i am very hungry just lazy to walk to canteen and buy food.. xD )
Haih.. Time Will Change everything in our life..

Someone that i had lost for one month..
Now She is back to me Again..
16 Days left..
Promise her that i will leave her after that 16 days..

Will be at KL for one month..
Will she miss me?
Will she borrow other people's phone to message me?
Will she care me during the one month?

Take Care =)
Stay Happy =)
Have a Nice Day =)

First day schooling after one week holiday..

This Morning..

When the first step into the school..
Feel like some thing gonna Happen..
Very Scare..
Very nervous..

Hmm..
When in the class room..
Really something Happen..
Someone who refuse to talk to me for one month..
Finally, She spoke to me..
Phew.. Feel very happy..

Use to it to study with her since i am new to the school..
But after some argument..
We seperate off..
And I dint touch my Revision book Or my text book for two month..
Haih..
It really made me no mood to Study..